Lately I’ve been hanging out on Are.na because I like connecting dots. It’s like food for my brain. When I am not doing anything else I am in my room on my laptop or my phone following trails of ideas. It doesn’t even have to make complete sense. I just find it therapeutic watching my mind freely wander and witness things unfold on their own.

Today I came across this block talking about randomness being “too chaotic and sometimes not random enough,” and it immediately made me think of tarot cards. https://www.are.na/block/10094528

Also off late I keep seeing random tarot cards everywhere on Are.na and started collecting them just to see if I can connect the dots someday. I take synchronicities a little too seriously.

And naturally my mind went back to the time when Sija bought a tarot deck off Amazon on a whim. She watched a few YouTube tutorials and pulled three cards on me, I think I was her first guinea pig. I clearly remember her pulling the cards, looking at them awkwardly and putting them back into the deck. I didn’t care enough at the time to ask what they meant, but I had jokingly posted the pull on my finsta, so naturally I went back to find the picture out of curiosity.

The cards were The Tower, Judgement, and The Hermit.

Today I decided to eff around and find out. So apparently these 3 cards are some heavy archetypes and equivalent of “your life is about to fundamentally alter itself”

First everything collapses. Then comes the realization or reckoning. And then you retreat inward to process and search for meaning.

Which is honestly such a dramatic accident for a silly first-time tarot reading.

The Tower is sudden collapse, destruction of old structures, chaos that forces transformation. Judgement is awakening, self-realization, being confronted with some deeper truth. And the Hermit is isolation, introspection, retreat into yourself.

I can’t lie but this is weirdly accurate in hindsight. So i guess it’s true that randomness is too chaotic and sometimes not random enough.